my four friends 

charry & reg 

i love this photo. it's not mine though, got it from a website...hehe 

this is my pc wallpaper for the moment. my grandpa made the poem. memories run free... 

Changes.

I have terminated my previous yahoo mail account because *sob* they did not give me a free 100MB mailbox upgrade.

But I have a new e-mail address. It's listed below.

Freedom of expression.

Yay! Again, I would like to thank Yayie for urging me to enable the comments feature in my blog. And she has posted comments! Mwah! Anyway, Yay, I read that Silver Swan Worcestershire Sauce thing you wrote in your blog and am intrigued. Where do I get it? Wala kasi dito sa supermarket na malapit sa office e.

I've done it!

No, I haven't complained to Yahoo about the apparent discrimination (see post below). But, thanks to Crazy Fruit Pie Lady, who also introduced me to the wonders of blogging, I have enabled the comments feature.

She e-mailed me just now and I'm very grateful. Ladida. Post your comments, world!!!

Not Yahoo.

I am insanely jealous. I read Crazy Fruit Pie Lady's blog and she mentioned being given a free update to 100MB mailbox. My officemate happily told me she was also given that privilege. Well, why is MY mailbox still a measly 4MB????

Grrr. I am going to complain. That's it. I really am. Now if I can just find out how...

Sick

To explain my absence of, erm, 13 days, well, I was sick. I hate to admit it especially after the last post with me declaring to all the cyber world that I am not weak. Well, of course, I meant that philosophically, not physically.

As for the nature of my illness, I better not say exactly, it makes me so much more mysterious that way...HA! Just that it required a trip to the hospital and cost more than I could afford. Jeez. The world is sometimes so unfair...

*Sigh*

Okay, the fact is, I really haven't been sick all those two weeks. I was sick for five and the rest could be blamed either to laziness or a hellish schedule. Anyway, I'm back and still keeping my nose close to the grindstone. I'm happy that way.

Oh, I'd like to thank Joel for that wonderful testimonial in Friendster. That's the nicest thing anyone said about me in the past month! Soon, I'll write you one, too, but we have to meet up and relive the memories of endless rainy days lounging at the foyer and spirited lunches kina Manang and oh, many more. 'Til then...

For now, I'm glad I'm back.

I am not weak.

I repeat, I am not weak.

Just because I let my tears fall after hearing what happened to my friend does not mean I cannot handle it. I can and I will if he just lets me. I am beyond angry right now. Here I am, thinking I've done agood job of handling whatever it is that I need to handle and she tells me my boss thinks I'm not strong enough for the damn job. He could have had the decency to tell it to my face and ask me if I can do it. Now she says he's asking her to cover for me because he thinks I cannot handle it because I'm too attached to the person involved.

Damn it to hell! I know I am affected by it all. I know that our long-ago connection has not been broken after a couple of years. But damn it! I know that I want to help in the best way I can. Does that make me incompetent and weak?

I hate it when people equate tears with weakness. I can't stand people who fight back their tears in an effort to appear strong. Isn't the courage to wear your heart on your sleeve a show of true strength?

I have never thought that hiding behind a veneer of coolness when your world is going topsy-turvy and keeping all your emotions neatly tucked inside you is wise at all. One day, people like these will explode and nothing that can be salvaged from the wreckage will probably be of use to anyone.

Maybe I do need to change careers. Start fresh. Move on. My happiness is slowly slipping away...

Writing, an activity I enjoyed and cherished, has ceased to become a source of pleasure and excitement. In this place where I work, it has become a duty, a task to be performed. I have never found it difficult to write before. I have seldom encountered writer's block before this job. And I have been writing since I was in fourth grade. But now, writer's block occurs more often, sometimes desperately needing a change of scenery to unclog the tangled words and the jumbled phrases.

Maybe a new job in a new environment will change this. I do hope so...

Part of me is, of course, scared of a drastic change in my life. But I know that if I put my mind to it everything will be fine and that I can do it and I can prove to everyone who doubted me that I am strong and I can do whatever I have to do in order to fulfill my dreams.

the unbeatable three sa tagaytay highlands with a clear view of the world-famous taal lake. it was drizzling that day, but you couldn't tell from our smiles. we were all very hungry during the time this picture was taken. hindi naman din masyadong halata. � 

joey, she, and well...me 

cha, me and joey 

reg, my ofcmate.  

me and him in bacolod... 

Food trip!

My boss, Sheryl and I had a *meeting* kanina. Well, okay, it was more of a lunch thing than anything else.

We went to Banana Leaf Curry House in The Podium at Ortigas Center. Yum.

I was slightly disappointed because unlike the first time I went there, we were made to eat on plates. I thought the whole premise of naming the place Banana Leaf is that you eat on banana leaves? Hmmm. Anyway, it was still delicioso.

We ordered Hainanese Chicken, King Prawns with Chili and Oyster Sauce, Unadulterated Curry Sauce (P30, what a steal! Pwede nang ulam!), Spicy Sour Chicken Soup, Deep-Fried Buffalo Wings, Spicy Tilapia (a really big one!), and that bread thing that isn't quite pita bread but is a perfect match for the curry sauce. When (Ha!) I go back, I'll be a cheapskate and I'll order the sauce to go. Tapos isasabaw ko sa kanin.

Naaalala ko tuloy yung ginagawa namin noon sa college (at least some of us...) pag wala ng pera pangkain at kailangang mag-kita-kita sa McDo. Order ng rice tapos hingi ng gravy. Yum.

Haaay. Ang laki tuloy ng tiyan ko...masyado akong nabusog. Pwede ng hindi mag-dinner. Ü

Rainy day.

It matches my mood, though not my makeup.

I saw something yesterday that made me sit up and think. Could it be a sign from the heavens? I'm inclined to think so.

Maybe my mom is right -- that it's probably time to start anew, to begin a new chapter in my life. It will be hard, no doubt about that. But will it be worth it?

I can try. oh god oh god oh god......!

Rantings

Sometimes I wonder if it's all really worth the trouble...

If I am so good at what I do, why am I being punished by preventing me from doing it? The irony is killing me.

I need the damn money. And I think it's time to find a new job. Thing is, like any normal human being, I fear change. I don't think I will be able to find a new job, the way the economy is and all that crap. I mean, anew job that allows me to do what I love to do and pay me roughly the same as I USED to be paid. Grrr.

How come my friends have no qualms about changing jobs? Is it just me? (Excuse me, while I battle this bout of self-pity and loathing...) Sob. I wonder if I'm ever going to be happy about my work again.

I need the damn money.

Sweet.

I have watched it. After agonizing about it for days, I have finally watched Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban.

Well, what can I say? I don't think any adjective in the English vocabulary would truly capture the greatness of the movie.

I plan on giving a detailed review of PoA here but then, I have only watched the movie once and I probably need to see it more than five times to be able to write an informative review.

Maybe later. For now, I am content. And I cannot wait for Goblet of Fire!

Some views though: readers of the book, like me, would of course notice that there were some alterations and modifications and deletions of parts in the story.

The part about Pettigrew being seen on the map by Harry wasn't in the book, and he didn't tell Lupin about that too, in the book, at least.

But, I must say that the movie turned out great after all. My only disappointment is not having enough funds (and time) to watch it over and over again. Sigh.

here's the dynamic duo looking at the orb in professor trelawney's class. gotta love ron's face! teehee 

this is a picture which i got from a link at the website www.mugglenet.com. it's from PoA. i just read my email and one mail from the pinoy harry potter egroups that i subscribe to confirmed that the movie is great and that it blew him away. i hope that when i do get to watch it later i will have much to say about it. i certainly hope i have time. 

Oh Joy!

I just talked to my boss and he told me I can split to watch Harry Potter after our afternoon meeting. Then I have to come back 'cause we have another meeting.

Oh Joy! Can't wait!

And oh, hey Ying! Thanks for looking at my blog. Miss you...do you still remember our energetic Philo classes? ;-)

Harry Potter Today

And I haven't seen it yet. There was a premier last night but I did not get to see it because, well, I didn't know how the hell I should get tickets. Anyway, I want to watch it so badly first thing today but I can't.

I have to be here, at work, while others will inevitably troop to the cinemas and watch it and be awed by it and I am turning green with envy at the thought.

Sob. I can watch it later, when most people have already watched their eyes out. But I really, really want to watch it now as I am sure some people are doing!!! I have a meeting at 2 p.m. and I cannot get away before then. I just hope the meeting will end at 3 and I can take the afternoon screening which I think will be less crowded than say, the 7 p.m. or the LFS. If I do not get to watch it today I will not forgive myself.

Aarrggghhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!