it's sad, really. how people seem to grow apart each day. how other people let them go away.

i wish i could say i did not expect this. i wish i could say that there's a away around it. i have a feeling we're only feeling the tip of the iceberg here.

maybe i'm next. who knows? god knows i've thought about it many times before. we're not getting any younger. nor any richer.

what can i say? i'm a bit disappointed. lord, i've been disappointed for the better part of this year. i can whine all i want and it won't count for anything. i keep thinking maybe it's time for a change but i just can't seem to take that plunge into the great unknown. i guess i'm just too scared to do so. in my comfort zone, everything is more or less predictable. i envy them, i guess. for their courage. or maybe they just felt there isn't anywhere else to go.

slaybelle, what does it take? how do you gather your courage and leave and start all over again? something tells me something better awaits me out there but the knowledge that i don't know what it is frightens me too much. dare i disrupt my universe?