it has been ages since i last blogged. no big reason, actually but just inertia.

sometimes i just find myself in a rut and find it hard to get out. but, just to recap the ten or so days away from the 'net:

on my last post i had said that i was in bulacan and i was. i knew that the week right after that would be very busy for me so i booked my neopet, latisha**** in a modestly appointed hotel (the mountain lodge) and gave her amenities such as spa treatments, jacuzzi, the swimming pool, etc. for seven days. this meant that i did not need to feed her. now that the week has lapsed i fed her with bananas and she loved it saying, "thanks! i was really hungry" though her hunger indicator said she is fine before i fed her. i haven't done much else with her 'cause i feel too lazy. besides, i have work to do.

so, on to the previous week. it was crazy as, surprisingly, i had to write a script which my coworker felt she couldn't do on such a short time. i had to finish it real quick because my boss was leaving for bangkok any freaking time.

he left on saturday, taking joks with him.

anyway, on sunday i had lunch with slaybelle, dolphin girl, and flo (whose blog is currently outta whack) at italianni's in greenbelt. we had a grand time eating and catching up on each other's news. i enjoyed myself immensely.

after that extended lunch, i went to my mom's place and spent the night.

last tuesday afternoon, i went to quiapo 'cause i had to buy something from a photo store. of course, i also bought beads.

am looking forward to trip to divisoria on friday. joks arrives that afternoon. yay!

i'm in bulacan, an internet shop full of ragnarok gamers. i feel ancient. i am playing the most mindnumbing game in neopets, and there they are, completely engrossed in a game i cannot understand.

oh well.

i miss joks already even if it's barely five hours since he left me at my mom's place.

my sisters and i endured riding in the backseat of an owner jeep. yeah!!! planet squatter. hehe. but it was fun.

dex de rosa sang this as his encore number. joks, this is for you.

I Love You More Today Than Yesterday

I don't remember what day it was
I didn't notice what time it was
All I know is that I fell in love with you
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Every day's a new day in love with you
With each day comes a new way of loving you
Every time I kiss your lips my mind starts to wander
And if all my dreams come true
I'll be spending time with you

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But, darling, not as much as tomorrow

Tomorrow's date means springtime's just a day away
Cupid, we don't need ya now, be on your way
I thank the Lord for love like ours that grows ever stronger
And I always will be true
I know you feel the same way, too

Oh, I love you more today than yesterday
But not as much as tomorrow
I love you more today than yesterday
But only half as much as tomorrow

Every day's a new day
Every time I love ya
Every way's a new way
Every time I love ya
Every day's a new day
Every time I kiss ya
Every day's a new day

when i was in college, i used to watch ally mcbeal religiously. isa 'to sa mga kanta dun. i have always liked it since.

no, not *that* lucky. wash that dirty mind of yours...

anyway. see, last tuesday we attended the catholic mass media awards in ateneo. our show, biyaheng langit won the best adult educational program award. it's great, i know, but we were late and we didn't get to accept the award. for once kasi, early ang awards. tapos na by 830 e we were expecting na mga 10 pa matatapos. kahit yung announcement ng nomination ng kasangga mo ang langit di namin naabutan.

and so to drown our frustration, we went to krocodile grill in libis for dinner. and what a dinner! as usual, i ordered the food (they seem to think i know all about good food). we had the usual sisig, baked tahong, calamares, salted spicy squid, crispy pata, sinigang na ulo ng salmon, inihaw na panga, adobong kangkong, gambas, inihaw na sugpo, and mixed seafood.

can you say yummy?

and then after dinner we went to nearby arruba. i had bailey's and a really big kilig moment. dex de rosa performed there. he sang songs that michael buble has in his self-titled album. ang galing ng boses niya, in fairness. at puro favorite ko ang mga kinanta niya.

*he was there!* he was sitting at the other end of the long table and so in the middle of dex de rosa's second set i texted him: "yosi?"

i was watching him then and when he got the text he looked at me from across the table and nodded and proceeded to get up.

and then we were alone, outside. there was a slight drizzle and it was wonderful and i felt like, hell, why doesn't this happen more often?

we talked about mundane things, innocent, nothing extraordinary. when we finished, he got up and told me he had to pick up his partner.

and so. i am soooo kilig. giddy. i know, i know, it's baaad but i can't help myself.

charry said he kept looking at me from across the table. *sigh.*

i'm the only one in the office, it's sunday and i've just done what i should. i want to go somewhere, shop some more. hee.

kahapon, charry, her mom, joks and i went to carriedo and divisoria. we bought some beads and findings. the lot didn't come cheap just because we bought tons of stuff. ang hirap kaya bumalik dun. pero gusto ko nga bumalik ngayon e.

to curb overspending, i brought 1,700, which is a lot already. i didn't bring my atm for fear of emptying it before the day ends. i didn't even keep an extra 500 in my secret pocket. kaya ayun. kulang ang pera.

ended up borrowing 500 from charry so i could buy a nice watch (faux cartier with faux diamonds-100) and take a cab back to pasig (200).

wanted to shop some more before leaving but joks complained of a backache and 200 pesos wouldn't get us that far anyway. oh well, next time.

I Feel The Earth Move
Carole King

I feel the earth move under my feet
I feel the sky tumbling down, tumbling down
I feel my heart start to trembling
Whenever you're around

Ooh, baby, when I see your face
Mellow as the month of May
Oh, darling, I can't stand it
When you look at me that way

I feel the earth move under my feet
I feel the sky tumbling down, tumbling down
I feel my heart start to trembling
Whenever you're around

Oh, darling, when you're near me
And you tenderly call my name
I know that my emotions
Are something I just can't tame
I've just got to have you, baby

I feel the earth move under my feet
I feel the sky tumbling down, tumbling down
I feel the earth move under my feet
I feel the sky tumbling down
I just lose control
Down to my very soul
I get a hot and cold all over
I feel the earth move under my feet
I feel the sky tumbling down,
Tumbling down, tumbling down...

love this song. loved it ever since i was a kid. loved to dance to it. we used to have this cassette tape, carole king's songs. i wonder if i can still find a cd of her greatest hits. i personally like her version of "you've got a friend" better than i like the original.

An earthquake measuring 6.4 in magnitude shook some parts of Luzon at around 10:36 p.m. Friday with the epicenter located some 61 degrees West of Tagaytay City.


The Philippine Institute of Volcanology and Seismology (Phivolcs) said the quake was tectonic in origin.


It said the quake was intensity 4 with the strongest jolt felt in Puerto Galera, Oriental Mindoro, Malolos, Bulacan, Tagaytay City and Los Banos, Laguna, all registering intensity 5.


The quake lasted in less than two minutes. The jolt was initially soft but progressed into brief wild swings.


Intensity 4 was recorded in Pasay, Talisay, Batangas, Tagaytay, Manila and Taguig while intensity 3 was recorded in Quezon City and Clark Economic Zone in Pampanga.


Reports from DZMM reporters indicated that the earthquake affected a bigger portion of Luzon.


Power interruptions were reported in some areas of Metro Manila but power was being restored rapidly in those areas. Bataan, Rizal, Bulacan, Cavite and Batangas were also hit by power outages.


Reports also said people had left buildings and business establishments. No reports of casualties or damage were made as of posting time.


The quake likewise caused traffic jams in some of Metro Manila's major thoroughfares.

This article is from ABS-CBN News.

i was in the office checking reggie's script when i suddenly felt the earth move. it was scary.

it's weird that during the most stressful moments of your life you can remember each and every detail as if it happened yesterday.

i can still remember the 1991 earthquake, the one that devastated baguio city. i was in fifth grade and our classes were in the morning. the quake hit around siesta time and i was sitting in front of our tv playing family computer. excite bike, level 2. i felt my chair move and i told my sister who was then watching me play to stop shaking my chair. she claimed innocence and we both ran for the door. the light in our living room swung violently and we thought it was going to break. thankfully, no one got hurt in our family but the experience was not a good one.

my boss called my other boss just after the quake hit: "grabe, akala ko nalubak ako ng malaki."

watched open water last night at power plant with joks, ms myr, and the boss. all i can say is, what the fuck?

i mean, i'm still trying to get over my fear of depths which prevented me from going ahead with my scuba diving lessons and i watch that? i know, i know. it's a stupid idea. but the boss wanted to watch it, him and joks and ms myr being one-star divers and all.

helleur!!!

now i don't think i can even bring myself to go snorkelling.

well. so a sequel.

he came to the office last night. but no, not to see me. he never said anything like that. i guess he was just curious. about how we work, live and all that, being you know, gone for some time.

anyway i was so...oh i don't know. i don't know how to describe it. basta. and then i had to call him this morning. we talked for such a long time on the phone.

him: o sige, pa'no? text-text na lang.
me: okay, thanks ha.
him: sige, ingat ka, bye.
me: *ikaw din.*

nooneenoo...

ha ha. for more cheeziness. oy, hindi ito dedicated sa kanya. dedicated ito kay charry

Bakit ngayon ka lang
Bakit ngayon kung kailan ang aking puso'y
Mayron nang laman
Sana'y nalaman ko
Na darating ka sa buhay
'Di sana'y naghihtay ako

Ikaw sana ang aking yakap-yakap
Ang iyong kamay lagi ang aking hawak
At hindi kanya

Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko
Pilit binubuksan ang sarado ko ng puso
Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin
At siya ba'y dapat ko nang limutin
Nais kong malaman
Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating

Ikaw sana ang aking yakap-yakap
Ang iyong kamay lagi ang aking hawak
At hindi kanya
At hindi kanya

Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko
Pilit binubuksan ang sarado ko ng puso
Ikaw ba ay nararapat sa akin
At siya ba'y dapat ko nang limutin
Nais kong malaman
Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating

Definitely! Someones gotta crush on you! It's
Obvious that this guy likes you, so stop
doubting it! If hes a little shy and hasnt said
anything, maybe you should be the one to make
the first move (If you feel the same way of
course). If you dont feel the same way, and he
has already told you that he likes you, tell
him how you feel in the nicest way possible,
after all he was brave enough to tell you.


Does He Like You?
brought to you by Quizilla

Cor blimey, I taste like Tea. I am a subtle flavour, quiet and polite, gentle, almost ambient. My presence in crowds will often go unnoticed. Best not to spill me on your clothes though, I can leave a nasty stain. What Flavour Are You?

i didn't think i'd admit it to myself or to anyone else that i enjoyed myself last night. i mean, barring the good food, it was probably because of well, okay, him.

three years ago, when i met him, i instantly felt attracted to him. the circumstances surrounding our meeting were unusual, and i guess unique. i was, by then head over heels in love with the guy i'm with now, and he was not free either, physically and matrimonially speaking.

but then, there it is. maybe it was his good looks, or maybe it was just him. of course, i held myself back, seeing no reason not to. in a way, weird as it seems, we had a connection. we corresponded rather sporadically after that first meeting. and i saw him once or twice within the three years. news reached me of his happiness and i was glad, though a part of me said, "awww shucks."

and then last night i saw him again, under quite different circumstances, a different ambiance.

me: hey, i saw your kid.
him: really, where?
me: powerbooks, with her mom.
him: hmmm...

of course, he teased me about how i looked and i acted slightly offended, but inside i was giddy with happiness. lord help me, i couldn't help myself. he helped himself to my food, and he said he liked it. i couldn't stop myself from staring at him and at times i'd watch the restaurant's door just to tear my eyes away from his face.

when we transferred to a coffee shop i ordered two pastries for everybody.

him: anong masarap dito?
officemate: ito, siguro.
him: siguro mas maniniwala ako sa kanya (ako daw).
me: ayan ka na naman. ngayon lang tayo ulit nagkita ganyan ka pa...
him: (taking my hands in his) ikaw naman, biro lang...

tangina. kinikilig ako.

and then when we sat down, i had the audacity to sit across him again. he asked me, between mouthfuls of cake:

"mahilig ka ba sa matamis?"

me: nang-aasar ka na naman e.
him: hindi ano ka ba... (taking my hands in his again...) di ba nga nagte-text-an pa tayo dati ng madaling araw na?
me: (inwardly) arrggghhh! not in front of the boss!!!

i couldn't stop smiling from ear to ear. i had to go to the bathroom to compose myself. kakahiya.

they went to a bar afterwards and i wanted to join them but my knight in a shiny motorcycle came just then to pick me up and i had no choice but to say good-bye. i probably won't see him again for the next, say, three years. i had a dream about him once before. and last night i could hardly sleep.

and now i feel guilty for feeling attracted to a guy i barely know. besides, i love my knight very much.

there. i've said it. so help me god.

You are the Fool card. The Fool fearlessly begins
the journey into the unknown. To do this, he
does not regard the world he knows as firm and
fixed. He has a seemingly reckless disregard
for obstacles. In the Ryder-Waite deck, he is
seen stepping off a cliff with his gaze on the
sky, and a rainbow is there to catch him. In
order to explore and expand, one must disregard
convention and conformity. Those in the throes
of convention look at the unconventional,
non-conformist personality and think What a
fool. They lack the point of view to understand
The Fool's actions. But The Fool has roots in
tradition as one who is closest to the spirit
world. In many tribal cultures, those born with
strange and unusual character traits were held
in awe. Shamans were people who could see
visions and go on journeys that we now label
hallucinations and schizophrenia. Those with
physical differences had experience and
knowledge that the average person could not
understand. The Fool is God. The number of the
card is zero, which when drawn is a perfect
circle. This circle represents both emptiness
and infinity. The Fool is not shackled by
mountains and valleys or by his physical body.
He does not accept the appearance of cliff and
air as being distinct or real. Image from: Mary
DeLave http://www.marydelave.com/


Which Tarot Card Are You?
brought to you by Quizilla

i feel as if i have the world on my shoulders.

why do problems sometimes have to come all at once, one on top of the other? problems over which i absolutely have no control.

what about me? us? what about my dreams? i work so damn hard just to reach my goal and some unseen force seems to be determined not to let me reach it. parang the nearer we get, the farther it becomes.

bakit ganun?