Wednesday, November 24, 2004
when you are faced with your own mortality, with your own vulnerability, that each one of us is living on borrowed time, there are no words that can aptly describe how you feel.
there is fear.
and yet, there is so much more. and perhaps so much less. raw emotions vying for space on your already too crowded brain.
why is there so much emotion attached to the idea of the spirit leaving its mortal shell to sail unhindered into the great mysterious beyond?
when you draw your last breath, do you really die? does death merely end your suffering on earth?
when you die, do you cease to be alive? where do you go? and what of your thoughts and feelings, dreams and longings?
there is of course, grief. we have become too attached to our worldly possessions, too comfortable in our homes, too complacent in our dysfunctional relationships.
some say that when you die, there is no more pain: how do we know joy if there is no pain? love without indifference? triumph without failure?
faced with your own mortality, you would not know what to feel, let alone put your emotions to words
Wednesday, November 17, 2004
had a horrendously busy day yesterday. just after the three-day weekend.
serves me right for having fun. hmp.
i didn't exactly head for the beach or any vacation spot though. how could i? after the saturday off (which i spent with deb and joks in quiapo), i spent sunday up until 2am monday slaving away on my computer for my script.
so on monday, joks and i went to project 3 and spent the day with tara who was left home alone by my mom who went to sariaya, quezon.
then, terrific tuesday began. had to write not just one but two (insert infomercial voice over here) 500-word articles. the first had a 2pm deadline while i had to submit the other by 5pm. wonderful. plus, i had to revise my script in time for the continuity shoot (6pm) and revise the other writer's script too (7pm).
as we used to say in college: ngarag. there's no other way to describe it.
and then, i had to rush over to our makati office because i had to voice over a single line for a merchandising plug they were editing. (watch out for it, it's about our triumphs this year. it's only going to be shown on rpn, though.)
what a day!
and now, today, the neopets site is down and i can't feed latisha1980 she might be v v hungry by now 'cause the only thing i was able to give her last monday was a strawberry milkshake. and i have to do the inventory for the beads which i'm consigning to deb's cousin for the alabang bazaar.
btw, if you're in the vicinity of alabang this weekend, drop by the closet booth at the cuenca community center and buy not one, not even two, but three beadies from the mr. bean collection! i give you my love and thanks in advance. Ü
Friday, November 12, 2004
people, this scared me to bits.
yikes!!! this is worse than a libel suit, that's for sure.
joks and i bought three vcd's from the sm megamall record bar last wednesday. two of those were marked "buy 2 for 150" while the other cd was priced at php99. the expected bill was, of course, php249 but then i was billed php399.
stupid me, i didn't notice the error until we left sm and so we resolved to get our money back the next day.
when i went back the next day, that is, yesterday, the ladies at the returns desk told me that sorry, they cannot refund my php150 but, they can issue me avoucher for the same amount which i can use to buy absolutely anything fancy.
well, whopee.
the reason we bought the "2 for 150" deal is because we would get to save 150, yes? so now henry sy is telling me i cannot have my money back because of some stupid cashier's error. ang yaman yaman mo na nga para 150 lang ayaw mo pa ibalik sa may-ari? suntukan na lang o.
grr.
Thursday, November 11, 2004
because of y_slaybelle's letter to santa, i am therefore making up my own.
let me just say that this is the first time i am writing a letter to santa. so, here goes.
dear santa,
seeing as it is only 40-something days to go before christmas, i submit for your perusal and hopefully, approval, a list of things you might want to consider leaving underneath my tree.
i've been really good. really. *bambi eyes*
love,
lhasyus
1. Kodak 3-Megapixel Easy Share digital camera
2. An affordable laptop
3. Alicia Keys: Diary of Alicia Keys
4. Norah Jones: Come Away With Me
5. Il Postino
6. World peace (see, I'm really, really good.)
p. s. i know it's an awful lot to ask but can i at least have one?
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.
What season are you? (pics)
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I:
Your Beauty lies
in Sadness. Lonely, depressed and feeling broken.
For whatever reason, you see
this world only for the bad that it holds carrying
the burdens of yourself and
others. Some people like to be with you and your
unique vantage point when they
are down, you are someone who can sympathize with
them. But you find yourself
alone again when they seem to find a solution and
are happy again, yet you still
are stuck in this rut. Do not worry, you will make
it out at some time. Everyone
does, if you try. When you are seen all others want
to do is make your pain go
away, but that is something only you can do. You
probably keep to yourself a lot
and don't like to let people in, afraid to be hurt
again. You feel empty and
helpless and your looks reflect that, often seen
with tears in your eyes.
Some Things
That Represent You:
Element:
Dark, Earth Animal: Robin Color:
Grays, Blacks, Dark
Colors Song: Tourniquet by Evanescence
Expression:
Tearful Frown
Gemstone:
Aquamarine Mythological Creature: Spirit,
Gargoyle Sign:
Aries Planet: Mercury Hair Color:
Blue-Black Eye Color:
Gray
Quote:
"Am I too lost to be saved?"
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Monday, November 08, 2004
grr.
as you can see, i changed the template of my blog just now. for some weird reason, the old one didn't cut it anymore. i had to spend most of the morning fixing things up again it's so frustrating as am not really a techie and do not know my way around html. dah.
i did get by, though. with a little help from my officemate's template which i broke into (with her permission, of course) to see where i could put my links on the new template.
then, i had to put my sitemeter back but somehow i couldn't. error daw. kaka-bad trip. and then i couldn't put my tag-board just yet kasi i'm simply too busy and i cannot, for the life of me, remember how i got that tag board. kebs. nobody tags me anyway.
so dear readers, please settle for this design although i must admit i was getting tired of the old one. my sister has a great idea for my blog but she wants to use flash but it's not supported by photobucket so kebs. maybe someday.
*sigh.* slaybelle, congratulations on your brand new captain mal 2.0. sana ako rin, portable mal pero malayong mangyari yun. ano ba ang pinakamababang presyo ng digital camera? pag masyadong mahal, film cam na lang siguro ako. ang hirap maging mahirap.
Sunday, November 07, 2004
i took this near the airport on the day joks arrived from bangkok about a week ago. again, took it with my phone so the color's not great and the resolution's a wash. i'm getting a digital camera for myself this christmas. grr. or, if that's too expensive, i'll even settle for a point-and-shoot film thing.
our christmas tree. that's my youngest sister and joks on either side. they were arguing good-naturedly where to put the trinkets on the already loaded tree when i took the picture with my phone.
i know, i know. it looks creepy so to add to the creepiness i will just tell you that this was taken in baguio with my camera phone last september.
Thursday, November 04, 2004
remember that old quiz show "name that tune" where the contestant will have to name a tune in so and so number of notes? wala lang. naaalala ko lang yun lalo na pag ganito na mega harrassed ako.
kasi ba naman, kahapon, pa-easy-easy lang ako kasi wala naman akong pressing deadlines. but no, nung gabi, mga around 10pm, pinagawa ako ng isang buong script ng ibang show, a show which i've never written before. at kailangan, matapos ko ng 3am.
"can you write that script in five hours?"
bwiset.
"well, hell! i did it in 3-and-a-half!" pero natulog ako ng five, with my whole system completely out of sync. haaay. ang hirap kumita ng pera.
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Your creativty and craftsmenship doesn't come from
nowhere. You used to be an artisan in your past
life, painting murals, sculpting statues, and
crafting wood for more noble people.
Who were you in your past life?
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belated ones, anyway:
happiest birthdays to dolphin girl and y_slaybelle!!! lots of love to you gurls!
after such a lazy weekend for me, it's back to the grind.
but first, a short recap: friday, joks and the boss arrive from thailand thus ending a week of lounging around.
on saturday, while most of the filipino population came out in droves to the various cemeteries and beach resorts all over the country, i sat in a booth at dencio's in rockwell and stuffed myself full of tuna sisig and lechon kawali. afterwards, we went to starbucks because the smell of sisig was driving me nuts and i couldn't possibly take any more pork in my system at that time. had almond sansrival, the overpriced ensaymada, and chocolate cake which the boss, smaller boss (who from now on we shall call SB) and i shared. plus, i had water. para bawas guilt.
on sunday, joks and i went on the great divisoria-quiapo adventure. cool kasi wala masyadong tao sa divisoria because aside from being a sunday, it was also a holiday of sorts. we got what we came for and we were able to save on transpo kasi we took jeepneys instead of the overpriced fx. biruin mo, from pasig to quiapo it's php20, pero pag pabalik ng pasig php30 na! highway robbery. we risked our lungs and took the jeep (php13.50).
debbie and i were supposed to go today but i couldn't possibly because of the boss.
last night, he asked me if i could write the continuity spiels for next week's episode before we could even shoot the main segment for that episode. great. and so i summoned my superhuman powers and did it in an hour. hmmm, those writing contests from high school sure are good training.
he called a while ago and indirectly said i am wonderful. hindi, joke lang. he wouldn't say, directly or indirectly how brilliant i am. baka daw lumaki ang ulo ko. hnh!