good news, dear friends. and bad news as well.

my mother is being discharged from the hospital on friday. she, however, cannot walk, stand or sit by herself. she is currently undergoing therapy to fully regain her speech and mobility.

it would take months, even years, i feel to bring back the mother i knew.

she is sometimes cranky and disobedient. i sometimes feel that i am the mother and she the child. i am terribly worried. will i ever get my life back again? will she?

her depression is understandable. she used to talk a mile a minute. she prided herself in her ability to communicate with everyone -- people she meets on buses, the mall, wherever. and now, that is gone, temporarily we hope.

but it is still uphill. she needs to be carted around on a wheelchair and has to continue going to therapy. if you guys know anyone who can provide home service therapy please let me know. if you know of anyone who can lend me a wheelchair, let me know as well.

i pray that all would be well.

my nights are two hours long and my days are rollercoaster rides across three cities. i am tired. my heart is tired. i need my life back. dear sweet jesus.