been listening to launch cast in yahoo. well, given that my internet connection is only a dial-up, i didn't expect much by way of video. and i was right because all i got were jumpy, blurry images that didn't make much sense. however, the audio was good.

listened to tori amos' new song, sleeps with butterflies and i think it's more or less a continuation of her previous works. i've been wanting to get a copy of one of her previous albums, little earthquakes but i am, as usual cash-strapped and 500 pesos will definitely make a great gaping hole in my wallet.

joks and i just sent money over to the province for his mom's hospital expenses. and just like marky, i feel black and blue all over, as if i'd been victimized by bad fortune muggers. i mean, my mom having a stroke and completely becoming dependent on my income was bad enough. and then there was of course my own miscarriage. and then joks' mom gets to have a trip to the general hospital. whopee.

joks' mom's d&c (dicing & cuttelage) operation was more or less okay. (i think and i hope.) joks says she's been asking for me and saying she might possibly recover faster if we were there with her.

i'd love to come, though obviously i can't. i have a million and one responsibilities, financial and otherwise.

last night i slept over here at the office. there's too much stuff to do that i have to sleep over again tonight. and yet, i do not think i have enough time to do everything that needs to be done before we leave for cavite on wednesday and then for laoag on thursday. will be out of town until monday dawn, i think. serves me right. i asked for this, didn't i?

omnesiac called me a while ago and i was glad to hear from him. he says his blog is currently on life support and he does not expect it to make it through the harrowing hell months we seem to be both crawling through.

well, i seem to be rambling, and i am really tense about work so i guess i should just go ahead and do it. i haven't had dinner yet. the thought of another fast food meal makes me want to retch. ugh. where to eat at this late hour and in this godforsaken area?

i just realized, i haven't been to my regular mall-haunt in ages! seeing that i haven't a centavo or a moment to spare, it's no wonder. though i do go to malls, not to shop, window shop and all the other things regular people do. boss likes to go there for meetings, says he doesn't feel as if he's working at all. geez. howz about we do not work at all?

grr.