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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
no, this is not about politics. just news about me. maybe you've noticed how i haven't been writing here (at least those of you who actually peek once in a while). i have been busy. and i have been lazy. i know those aren't valid excuses but then, that's all i'm giving. and so on to the news: i am pregnant once again. i have known for quite some time now but have denied my urge to blog about it because well...i feared it might not push through like the last time. anyway, i'm still not sure yet and i'm up for an early ultrasound this friday. please pray for me. by that time, i'll be ten weeks along and i'm hoping to see the faintest flicker of a heartbeat and a more or less recognizable form. after that, maybe i'll get to heave a sigh of relief and enjoy this more. i've been feeling nauseous these past days, having headaches, flaring up at the tiniest provocation, vomitting once in a while, or at least feeling like i want to vomit because i feel so bad and bloated. i haven't slept continuously for weeks because i've had to get up at least three times during the night to pee. and then we're running out of money for everyday expenses. i'm taking medicines, drinking milk, eating tremendously, all of which inevitably add up to more than what i've initially planned to spend. it's been great, really. and then, there's him. no point in dwelling about him - the-one-that-never-will-be - but i do think about him, have thought about him lately. but i'll get over it. i always do. maybe it's just my hormones acting up. excuse me, i need to lie down. i'm having a massive headache. *sigh* |
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