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Thursday, October 27, 2005
i find that it's been a month since i last blogged. i have no excuse save for laziness and a hectic schedule. and even now i am squeezing in some on-line time while hoping that our clients do not arrive on time for a scheduled viewing of their video. it's been such a busy week at work and i haven't had the time to announce my good news. i had my second prenatal check-up last friday and i finally heard baby's heartbeat via the doppler instrument (it's a battery-powered tool used for that purpose). baby's heartbeat is a robust 148 bpm, slower than last we checked via ultrasound but that's normal. and while we were measuring baby's heartbeat he/she moved! i am now 16 months pregnant and yesterday i felt baby move for the very first time. i do not know how to describe it. i was happy and scared at the same time. imagine, we only have five more months to save enough money for the delivery and all the other expenses afterwards! but then, it felt wonderful to feel our child moving inside me. i keep holding my breath, hoping i could feel him/her more often, knowing it'll be some time before that would happen. i am torn between wanting to buy stuff for baby and knowing we need to save every surplus centavo we earn to prepare for baby's coming. i long to browse through baby shops and actually go home with a purchase but i know that the more important thing for us to do right now is to ensure that there'd be money for any eventuality. i keep praying that everything will go smoothly, that baby will be delivered normally and without complications... these, on top of my obligations at work. i keep accepting every racket that comes my way but sometimes it feels like they're just not enough to fill up the target amount for baby and i just end up exhausted and stressed out. though i know i can relax a bit at home next week because of the holidays, a part of me yearns to go out, go somewhere, see different things, but there just isn't money for that. i will be forced to stay put for four days and probably go stir-crazy and annoy my husband with my incessant whining. any suggestions? they'd be greatly appreciated... |
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