well here i am, blogging, in the first few hours of christmas eve, trying to pass the time. my officemates are outside, drinking the night away and i couldn't even watch them do it because i'm in danger of secondhand smoking. but even from here i can smell the cigarette fumes through the open door. oh well. we had just come from our christmas party, undoubtedly the most sedate celebration we've had (since i joined the company five years ago anyway).
since ours is a very small company, each of us had the opportunity to take home a prize from the raffle. joks and i both won a stand fan. so we have two stand fans, one of which we are going to give to my mother, the other we'll keep and bring to negros when we finally settle there.
oh wait. *big* news! we're going to have a boy! little joks is on the way and he'll probably see the world for the first time in april or may. joks and i have decided to name him jaden (read: jay-den) which means "god has heard." i wanted something that has a beautiful meaning that he will be proud of when he's old enough to understand. we also considered julian lee but we finally settled on jaden. it's unique, simple and meaningful to us so this is what we picked.
here's a picture of his lovely little face:
already you can see jaden's eyes, nose and mouth, even his hair is recognizable. doctor says everything seems to be normal, doctor and joks even counted his fingers and toes, saw his heart, and watched him move energetically across the screen. actually, even before we had the scan, as joks and i were waiting in the clinic, jaden kept moving. it was like having a small ball bouncing up and down my tummy. it's as if he's as excited as both his parents are with the ultrasound scan.
joks and i couldn't be happier right at that moment. it's as if seeing jaden made us love each other more, if that were possible (because i swear i love my husband more than life itself and my love for him keeps growing every single day). we both marveled at how we could have helped bring a human being into this world and made us anticipate his birth even more.
jaden weighs 587.5 grams, a little over a pound, which is normal for his age. right now i can feel him moving, as if telling me, "oh come on, mommy. lie down, will ya? i'm tired."
oh happy christmas. i can't wait for the new year and what it will bring.
or rather, "stuff i wish i can buy but know i couldn't:"
1. an mp3 player
- i saw one on sale, a 256 mb mp3 player for php2,500. i don't want anything fancy, just something baby and i can listen to while relaxing.
2. or a discman
- again, so i can listen to my choice of music, on my own time. nothing too fancy.
3. a digital camera
- i'd love to have this in time for baby's birth next year but, no dice. joks is far too practical to get us one.
okay, so i can charge to death, i can even pay for it cash, but then, saan naman akong kangkungan pupulutin pagkatapos kong ma-satisfy ang materialistic urges ko? hay.
some weeks ago i received something in the mail i never thought i would have in my entire lifetime -- a credit card. yes, plastic just in time for these materialistic times. i have used it, alas. i lack the self-control i so wish i have. but i am proud of myself for not maxing it out...yet. i have bought clothes for my growing tummy and only did so with plastic because i was saving my cash for other, uh, purposes. i cannot wait for my statement to arrive because i so want to pay off my debt (and spend more! mwahahaha!)
i promised to myself i'd pay the whole thing come january 18th. but you know what they say about promises.
oh blame me not. can't help it. i'm afraid i can't do the dance of joy yet since our future is so uncertain, bonus future i mean. up to now, just days away from christmas, word has not yet arrived about that oft-dreamed of gleaming check at the end of the year.
don't get me wrong. i know christmas is not about the bonus (well, not entirely about it anyway) but i am pregnant and i do need the money. everyone needs the extra dough right at this time of the year, i know, so i am speaking for everyone in our office.
ang dami ko kayang inaanak na kailangang maambonan ng aginaldo.
so i am praying to the god of christmas bonuses, please make us happy!!!
feh.